The wall.

Weight: 296.1
Mood: irritated

Today I found myself really forcing my way through today. I forced myself out of bed at 3:00 am, even though I didn't want to go, I forced myself into my truck to go to work, I forced myself to eat healthy stuff, and forced myself to do a pretty decent job watching what I ate today. Even though I could probably label today as being pretty successful, I feel like I wasn't. I just feel like there's a disconnect between what my head is telling my body to do, and what my body is actually doing. I am thinking thin, eating right, putting good, nutritious food into my body and I just don't feel any better throughout the day.

You know how you hear the diet stories like "Oh my gosh, I dropped like, five whole pounds and now I have energy up the wazoo! Yay me and my energy!" Well, I'm totally not feeling that yet. I'm tired. I'm worn out. I'm not feeling like I'm doing good, even though I know I am. Maybe I'm hitting "the wall" like runners do during a marathon. Geez. Did I actually compare eating better to a marathon? Really? There's nothing athletic about what I'm trying to accomplish (not yet anyways) yet I'm using a sports metaphor to describe how I'm feeling. Wow.

Well, either way, I will stay resolute, and stick to my guns. The end result of where I want to be is worth the few road bumps I'm going to hit along the way.